My heart has to let go because I have to face the fact that ill never ever have you back in any way shape or form. I have to be ok with the fact that I alone fucked everything or anything that could have been up. A million prayers, wishes etc will never be enough to get what I want so I have to be ok with that and take responsibility for me being the one that made things the way they are now.
It hurts a whole lot to know I have to completely cut you out of my life because if I don't I'm just still stuck torturing myself.
You know the dumbest thing about this pain and regret I feel is that I know you don't care even one tenth like I do. I know you don't give me a second thought, you don't think at all about me and you could really just care less if I just disappeared and you never saw me again. I don't matter am I never did an I know that. I'm just stupid enough to feel and care and I don't know why...
